They say change is good.
I used to say that I thrived on change. I was the one who always looked for a new challenge, a new opportunity. I wanted to do more, try new things, take on the world.
On my mission, I felt a new breath of life with each change. While it was entirely difficult and even painful leaving behind the people and places that I loved,
I looked forward to new opportunities in new places.
Recently, we have undergone many changes. And I didn't realize how difficult it is to have
SO many changes all at once.
In the past 6 months, I have:
- Come home from Argentina
- Gotten engaged
- Decided that Brad would attend law school in Utah
- Gotten married
- Changed my major and switched to an online program
- Moved to Utah to a new home, far from dear family members
- Changed jobs
To me, it's a lot. And it has hit me in the last few days, just how much it is. Don't get me wrong, I am more happy than I have ever been. We love being married and we love our new life. But I have had to learn to deal with change in a way that I have never had to before.
Most importantly, I have to rely on the Lord even more than before. I must know that we are doing exactly what He would have us do. Sometimes, I miss my amazing family. Sometimes, I miss my beloved Arizona. I miss being a piano teacher. But, I find great consolation knowing that we are doing the Lord's will. He wants us in Utah. He wants Brad to attend law school. He wants us to be happy.
Secondly, I have learned to rely on Brad. How important it is to truly cleave to one another as we are counseled. Let's be honest. I am a strong willed woman. Sometimes, I try to do things myself that I probably don't have any business doing. Sometimes I unknowingly keep my thoughts bottled up inside of me. Being married, I have learned to let Brad in. I am not the best at it, but I am ever so grateful for all that he does for me. For his help in all that I do. For his great support.
"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it,
move with it, and join in the dance."
- Alan Watts
I am happy for the change. Grateful for the chance to grow.
Attentive to the hand of the Lord in the journey.
So glad that Brad is by my side through it all.
I will jump in and join in the dance!
How do you cope with change?