Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Change

They say change is good. 

I used to say that I thrived on change. I was the one who always looked for a new challenge, a new opportunity. I wanted to do more, try new things, take on the world. 

On my mission, I felt a new breath of life with each change. While it was entirely difficult and even painful leaving behind the people and places that I loved, 
I looked forward to new opportunities in new places. 



Recently, we have undergone many changes. And I didn't realize how difficult it is to have 
SO many changes all at once. 

In the past 6 months, I have:
- Come home from Argentina
- Gotten engaged
- Decided that Brad would attend law school in Utah
- Gotten married
- Changed my major and switched to an online program
- Moved to Utah to a new home, far from dear family members
- Changed jobs

To me, it's a lot. And it has hit me in the last few days, just how much it is. Don't get me wrong, I am more happy than I have ever been. We love being married and we love our new life. But I have had to learn to deal with change in a way that I have never had to before. 

Most importantly, I have to rely on the Lord even more than before. I must know that we are doing exactly what He would have us do. Sometimes, I miss my amazing family. Sometimes, I miss my beloved Arizona. I miss being a piano teacher. But, I find great consolation knowing that we are doing the Lord's will. He wants us in Utah. He wants Brad to attend law school. He wants us to be happy.

Secondly, I have learned to rely on Brad. How important it is to truly cleave to one another as we are counseled. Let's be honest. I am a strong willed woman. Sometimes, I try to do things myself that I probably don't have any business doing. Sometimes I  unknowingly keep my thoughts bottled up inside of me. Being married, I have learned to let Brad in. I am not the best at it, but I am ever so grateful for all that he does for me. For his help in all that I do. For his great support. 

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it,
move with it, and join in the dance."
- Alan Watts

I am happy for the change. Grateful for the chance to grow. 
Attentive to the hand of the Lord in the journey. 
So glad that Brad is by my side through it all. 
I will jump in and join in the dance!





How do you cope with change?


3 comments:

  1. I feel your pain. This time last year I was in your shoes... Moved back in with my parents, graduated from grad school, met my husband, got engaged, moved to Utah, started working in a school setting (my LAST choice), got married, and my husband switched majors - ALL in 6 months. Now a year later, Utah still doesn't feel like home, however, I have never been happier than I am now. I have really grown to love aspects of Utah - like all the fun, free activities that are always going on. Finding those activities has helped me enjoy it much more! We should double sometime!

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  2. 1) You know Kourtney too--small world! Haha
    2) Totally understand how you feel! I didn't even have that many changes all at once, but even just being married is a big change. And it's wonderful, but it does take some getting used to, when you have gotten so used to being independent and keeping things to yourself. I used to think I was pretty open, especially with Brian, but you learn you have to be so much more open and vulnerable when you're married. One of the best pieces of advice was "It's no longer YOUR decision, it's OUR decision." It's wonderful to get to work together and plan your life together, but definitely takes getting used to!
    3) You are so right--keep relying on the Lord! Couple scripture study and prayer is great and necessary, but be careful not to forget personal scriptures/prayers too, because you still need your personal growth and relationship with the Lord to meet your individual challenges! :)

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  3. Kourtney! Oh, it has been way too long! Yes, let's get together!!! All of the changes in your life sound crazy. You are an inspiration!!

    Katie, I absolutely agree! Very wise words!!!

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